So I have been thinking, nowt new there then ey. I have been thinking and watching videos, listening to people, thinking some more. It is not how long it takes, how tough it is or even how slow or fast you go through life, it is that you keep going, the changes you wish to see or make in life, can be little, they can grow and improve your life, without you even realising, until someone else notices. I started a gym routine back in February this year, I was going more regularly back then but I still go, I also go running once a week usually, again I don’t ridicule myself for missing it, just aim to get back on the horse soon as I can. I was told by several people recently, they can see a difference, obviously most people notice I look better, lost weight but not too much I guess that they’d say you look unwell. However one commented that I seem different, as in I’m more motivated, I’m doing more that I would normally ignore or forget, like say the washing up or the housework in general. Little changes, I never noticed but soon as I was told I realised I was doing more, I did feel healthier or better.
I have some new changes I am struggling to implement, especially in regards to technology and routine, I want to keep on top of housework, this is a tough ask for me, I know easy solutions, but discipline is definitely lacking. I thought about taking the phone out of the bedroom, maybe even all technology, but this is less likely, as it has been embedded into my routine, invest in an alarm clock, but then the TV still is there, for those cosy nights in bed watching movies, I might even scroll through my phone a while too, I think it is pretty common, I like checking my phone when I wake up, see if a friend has messaged cos they’re up already. I can’t quit that habit I don’t think. I could possibly not use technology in the bedroom bar that, I could set a time for no more screens, right now i’m eyeing up the time, nearly 9pm, I try to be in bed by 10pm without fail, mostly it works, I’m a reader but I can’t remember the last time I was so engrossed in a book i kept returning to it every night, I lie it was most likely a year ago, (Shappi Khorsandi’s – Nina is Not Ok) not my usual reading fare, bought for my holiday to Egypt, may have been gripped by a Doctor Who book since then but it was around that time.
I’m still pondering more little changes I can make to life, spreadsheet with chores typed out, making sure I do one chore every day might be a start, making a list of all the tasks, frequency, this is because if I don’t, likely nothing will get done, ha!
Anyhoo as a little message to all feeling lost, as dyspraxia for me can make it seem so futile, little changes, make a big difference, baby steps!