Autism – Undiagnosed but surely on the spectrum
As some of you readers may already know I live with a condition known as dyspraxia. I, along with my mum and a lot of her colleagues/friends have said that I might be Aspergers or something on the autistic spectrum. I am unsure why but am trying to find out the possibilities or become more self aware.
In my opinion today’s world, society and professionals often try to trap people into believing they are ok, you don’t my help, you are fine kind of attitude, we are brought up that way in general if you ask me. I found a story posted online by a guy and found it very useful to read about his situation.
Check it out HERE
I am constantly around people with learning difficulties, one of my closest friends seems to be showing serious signs of some form of autism or a serious learning difficulty as I am still learning about the conditions myself. He definitely shows signs of dyspraxia, being very clumsy and struggling socially it seems.
So I hope I can find out more about my condition, or simply become so self aware I can find coping mechanisms and know what I need from other people. It does feel like to get the doctor to help you, or should I say specialist to help you, you need to get the complete knowledge of the condition and provide evidence to support your claim, rather than have them make an assessment on you. Incidentally how can one be assessed for a condition in one or two hours of talking.
I have been told my condition is an anxiety disorder and that might be why, but seriously if it is that, why am I looking back on life with the help of online stories and noticing serious social awkwardness, I don’t care for the label, but I want to be recognised as who I am, not some nobody that literally has to struggle past my weaknesses to become someone I’m not in order to get someone who doesn’t really give a shit, to allow me to be who I really am, recognise me for what I am and help me become who I want to become.
Emotionally I’m not stable, physically, I’m fine, I’d like to tone up and slim down but that will come when it comes, I don’t feel like life has dealt me the best cards in recent years, so yeah I’m not expecting that I am feeling good, but I want some results soon, I’m bored of this stagnant lethargic existance.
So yeah, lots of research ahead and lots of thoughts on my blog methinks.
This entry was posted on May 12, 2013 by alwaysmutetheweirdo. It was filed under Life and was tagged with aspergers, autism, dyspraxia, journey of self discovery, Life, research, self awareness, socially awkward, undiagnosed.